Kawan ?

Ya Allah . Macam susah sgt skrg kn nk cari kwn yg bebetul setia . Macam , Ainan ade terase giler2 ngan kawan Ainan tu kan . Dan , mmg bnyk sbb lha knape kn . Tapi , dy cuba pulak kn cari kslhn Ainan . Kay , redha . Ainan salah , Kay , fine . I'm feeling all the guilt right now kan ? And , that's what you wanted kan ? All , those stupid mistakes , now's mine . Huh , fine . I'm the patient one . Kay , redha jugak .
Ainan sayang kawan Ainan tu . Ainan care tntg dy . Maybe , she never notices that . And , I wrote some stupid letter to her . I wrote everything that time . When I say everything , I mean . everything . I told her that she really hurts my heart and guess what ? I regretted kot sending her that letter . Why ? My heart hurts MORE .Kay , redha . 
Kawan , Ainan mintak maaf . Ainan thu kawan bnyk terase ngan Ainan . Tapi , kwan penah ke pikir psl prasaan Ainan . We've been such great friends for many days now . I mean for almost 1 year n a half . And yet , you haven't known me well ? I'm truly sorry for everything and I cried last night . You , who I thought would be my greatest friend is now my biggest enemy . I wouldn't want it to be that way . I want to be be friends with you again . More than I could ever wish . But , I afraid , my heart would again be broken , crushed into pieces . Yet , I'm apologizing again . Goodbye .
Plus , I love you but ....